no talent

Whatever, i realized i have no talent in webdesign photoshop or anything creative whatsoever. I give up in trying to make my own layouts.

See that's my problem, I'm always half-assed about everything. Like I know a little bit of things, I'm never an expert or really good at anything. For example, the piano. I started playing when I was really young... like 4. I mean who plays the piano at 4? Some kids can't even speak properly at 4 years old. Anyway, I was pretty talented. My piano teacher thought that I had perfect pitch... and I took lessons till I was 7, and then quit. So my piano skills are still stuck at the same level as when I was 7. Second example, drawing. If you've been to my house, I have some pretty kick-ass oil painting up on the walls. Either I painted them, or my brother painted them. I mean they're not great, but decent. But I'm not too proud of the paintings, because it's also something I just gave up on. I remember I used to be really into webdesign and photoshop in junior high. I never got good at it, and I guess I just quit when I entered high school.

I'm also half-assed about the way I learn. I'm pretty well-rounded. I read a lot of non-fiction books, magazines, blogs, and whatever. I always get the gist of things, and never really bothered to remember the details. So in my conversations with people, I essentially sound like a dumbass, sayings things like u know, that thing, that happened there, with the, you know.

I really hope that I'm not the same way guitar. Like I really wanna get good at it. I also wanna salvage learning the piano. (as soon as my mom gets the piano tuned since it is off-tuned by half a step).

Things that I hate.. right now atleast

• Apple Store--Genius Bar
• iPhone
• The U.K. Embassy
• Old ladies in Flushing that carry around umbrellas when the skies are clear and poke me in the eye with them
• Flushing and all the po-pos there because of the whole falungon people and chinese people who want to change China into a democratic nation.
  
• Lazy people/freeloaders
• Gawker... and people who read Gawker, who make fun of hipsters but they obviously all are hipsters
• Hipsters
• Hipsters in denial
• Obama supporters/liberals
• white people on the 7 train going to the mets game who are really loud and obnoxious, especially this one guy who has obvz never been to queens before and he's giving his friends a "tour" by saying weird ass incorrect statements like... "This is known as Little Columbia."
  

Ayo Technology

I seriously love technology. Like the smallest things make me happy, such as printing wirelessly from my laptop.

But on the other note, the new iPhone is a HUGE disappointment. 3G is great, but it's not even that prevalent in the U.S. And who the heck cares about a scientific calculator? I absolutely cannot believe that it's even worth mentioning. The camera still sucks, and still no video. Usually the first thing I do is to mod my phone, like my razr, v600, and whatever..For some reason, I didn't jailbreak my iPhone.... I guess I should and I would probably complain less about the iPhone. Now if only it would stop crashing on me all the time.

Oh yeah, my website looks so stupid, bc i can't think of a theme and a layout for it.... It almost looks like the images didn't load or something.

The NY Knicks

I totally forgot my purpose in life: To own the NY Knicks.... I guess it's something I can work towards. I mean shoot for the stars, and if you don't get it atleast you'll land on the moon, or however the saying goes....

It's just kinda depressing because the older I get, the more less realistic my goals become. When we're young, the sky is literally our limit, but now, things like glass ceilings and reality gets in the way. I hate growing up, it's so depressing.

The Wire

So after watching The Wire, and reading my blog posts, i realize that i sound like a stuck-up elitist bitch :(

Ratemycop.com

I Love my REASON MAGAZINE:

Just found out about this site: http://ratemycop.com aimed to give citizens the an opportunity to somewhat hold police officers accountable for their actions, based on those who they essentially "govern." I love it....